It is rare that I can just take a day off and just chill. Today I decided that this day was just for me. No housework, no cooking, no study (even though I have a deadline and have done nothing). I bought some magazines (research for decorating and a project I've in mind), bought a cooked chicken and salad and have spent the afternoon watching chick flicks and Sex in the City. I have so needed today to unwind and just think. I have been more stressed out than I thought I was and I am so in need of a break (I'm off on holiday in a week and can't wait). It is just nice to have a lazy Sunday. It is was I have deserved for myself for a long time.
I am currently at ease with myself and the way my life is at present.
That is a huge statement for me to share and also a very long time coming.
The past few years have been really tough. Life seemed to have totally gone off track. My life felt off kilter and to a point not my own. I suffered deeply with depression, had a crappy job, my relationship with my husband was at times very strained and I had become very insular and within myself. Life felt hard and I suffered greatly.
I got a new job, and for a few months I hated it. It didn't float my boat so to speak. I thought I could do better. I felt like I had taken a huge step backwards career wise, I was unhappy and felt broken. But I suddenly had an AHA moment. I realised that I could and should change my attitude towards it. I didn't want to look for a new job as it had taken a while to find this one and I hated filling in application forms and going to interviews. I didn't want to find a job where I would…